Depression.

*May have some triggers, so please be careful when reading*

Depression is a word that sounds so foreign everytime it’s heard. I mean, you hear about it, but until it causes something extreme, it’s just an emotion. Something you just can’t quite understand.

This feeling, (let’s call it a feeling), causes heartbreak, dispair, longing, emptyness. It drives people away- actually, you do, because it makes you feel worthless like you’re not worth their time.

I’ve watched people with depression end with suicide.

I’ve watched it destroy marriages and relationships.

I’ve watched it turn a happy teenage boy into a train wreck.

I’ve never seen it create a relationship, but I’ve seen relationships grow stronger because of it (let’s talk about this in a different post, okay?).

But it’s not cute. It’s not beautiful. It’s not some romantic idea that you can turn into a book and sell.

Wanna know what’s beautiful/cute/romantic? Someone depressed learning to love themselves. Learning that they’re not perfect but do deserve to love. Learning how to help others who suffer similarly. Even learning how to fight for happiness…

They deserve self love, your love, my love, our love, God’s love. They deserve love. And you do, too.

So, please, if you’re struggling with depression, reach out to somebody. Anybody. I am adding a few photos with hotlines for different countries, and a text message hotline for the USA. Please be safe, okay?

This is one girl’s madness.